Firstly, I should apologise for the lack of post Monday…totally my bad. With Monday being a bank holiday, and therefore a day off, I got confused, thought it was Sunday and by the time I realised it was a bit too late..oops!
But anyway. This week has been a very very stressful week. I spoke last week about feeling torn between two decisions that were really important to me. Well, as it turns out, i was so confused and stressed because neither of those two things were what I really wanted to do. You know as a kid when you have this crazy dream of having a certain type of job and then you get swept up in the real world and realise you either don’t want it anymore or you give up on it. I had that. I had given up on my dream job, even though to this day it is the one thing I want more than anything. So I was left choosing between these things that I do enjoy, and would like to do, whilst ignoring the voice in my head telling me there is something else I’d rather be doing.
You can see where this is going, I’m sure. I’m not going to ignore that voice anymore. Sure, I’m going to proceed with my ‘safe’ option, but I’m ready to put myself out there and at least try going after what I want. I’m scared, and nervous as hell, but I think that’s how I know it is the right decision for me. I already feel 10x less stressed just making the decision, it’s like a feeling of calm has washed over me, and I for sure am not used to calm!
It’s crazy how one day you can just snap and see what’s been so obvious for so long! It happened right before a conversation with a friend, and in the course of the conversation she was talking about her plans, and the decisions she was making and they were all 100% for her. She doesn’t realise it now, but she basically solidified my whole thought process and made me more determined.
So, to anyone out there who is struggling, or ignoring the voice in their head telling them to go after something. Start listening to yourself! Yes, it is terrifying, but if it scares you, it’s probably because you want it so much. They do say that adventure begins outside of your comfort zone….I think.
I’ll keep you updated on the journey, but hey if I write it online I have to follow through…right?
Hope you all have a lovely weekend, tell me about your dream job!
Much Love x